I keep getting very simular feelings, its the same thing over and over again.

My ex-girlfriend (who i am still very close to), I keep reciting a speach for her funeral, i can tell im a simular age to the age i am now, not sure about any details but its mainly just the standing infront of people giving a speach about her. I cant get it out of my head, but it makes me keep thinking what if this did happen, what would I say if I was asked to give a speach. Its beginning to happen more and more reguarly. Its a really horrible thought. But often it happens whilst im at work, when im walking to another part of the building etc. Its horrible.

Depression. Go for a jog and just let yourself relax. Nothing beats a good jog. Or kicking a soccer ball around (with a friend or by yourself) to get your mind off things.

Or jacking off.

I'm a pessimist when I'm driving; I always expect somebody to fuck up and run into me. I'm always playing out these scenarios in my head, trying to anticipate when the next dumb fuck will try to cut me off, or slam on their brakes for no reason, etc...

I've never been in a wreck before. I'd like to attribute that to my pessimism. So being pessimistic can be a good thing.

lol milla, its not depression.

Poseidon, you're just a deep thinker, I'd say the same about Anti too...I have similar weird reocurring thoughts like that, there are quick and easy ways to combat them - The challenge is figuring out what ways best suit you personally. If I ever start tangenting towards negative thoughts like that I decide to myself that I'm not going to go there and just start thinking of something more pleasant.
It REALLY pays to always have something to look foward too or something that will give you the same instant satisfaction as being excited about something upcoming...

I know alot of people around here probably won't even be able to comprehend feelings like this. Some people just do alot more random thinking in their heads than others. I'm not necessarily talking about smarter people here, just people that will play out scenarios in their head, and amuse themselves with random thoughts etc
I do it all the time, a few negative thoughts doesn't mean depression at all.

Depression is alot more serious and dangerous. Nihilistic tendencies can often lead to depression that's why deep thinkers are sometimes more prone to depression because they stop and ponder on more of a global level than other people...

I think this thread's going to end up in a big argument and everyone's going to fall out and hate each other and then everyone will leave and gf1.com will close omg. loney:

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She looks deformed sitting like that. I'm going to jack-off anyway.

Yeah I am a deep thinker come to think about it, I always think about the concequences before doing something, always think "what if". And your right, I dont really have that much in my life to "look forward to". At the moment, things just seem to be getting worse, and when I suddenly think things cant possibly get worse, something else shitty happens. Its like a giant loop. I probably need a new lady in my life, as its practically all I think about nowadays. I've had shag buddies, and stuff but it's just not me. Most females i've been with have either cheated on me, or just not given me the time and effort I give them.

You guys should learn to play Chess.

[quote="Mr.Buttocks":5e871]You guys should learn to play Chess.[/quote:5e871]

I already know how to play chess, just dont know many people that can play it.

[quote=Poseidon]I already know how to play chess, just dont know many people that can play it.[/quote:59127]
I dont have a chess set anymore :(

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