anyone else going insane
 

well its finally happened

took only 2 weeks

im done college, no one is home from school yet

no gf, n pussy, no love, just fascist parents

my job is tough, littl epay yet, i come home in pain

i came home today, and blasted judy is a punk by the ramones, screamed the lyrics as i thrashed and played it on my guitar




i think im finally losing it, anyone else ever had this?
if so explain the circumstances

It took you two weeks to finish college?

no ive been home for two weeks

edit: and thank god im not done yet, im gonna be a soph next semester

offtopic:

what college you go to, I see you live in PA, anywhere in east pa?

Yes, I am crazy.

beer:

right now im thinking of suicide. does that count?


fucking shit ass fucking peice of shit earth. i hope a fucking asteriod slams into this planet and kills everything in existance

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what college you go to, I see you live in PA, anywhere in east pa?[/quote:fdd21]

i left my empire at u of pittsburgh

i live in bala cynwyd, right next to philly

[quote="T.Hunter":dea56]right now im thinking of suicide. does that count?[/quote:dea56]

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I have slight schizophrenia, does that count as being crazy?

so all you guys know exactly how it feels to be on the brink of explosion

its fun but its bad

Hmmm, try staring at the wall. Eventually it will move and or give you divine knowledge

write a poem, that helps to vent. Then look back at it a few days later when you're not so pissed off, it's kind of funny reading what you wrote, I did that once.

No I'm not going insane, but i'm depressed at times becaue the place where I live currently just sucks ass...

All I can tell you is to enjoy the time you have to yourself and start a hobby to keep you busy or something.

every lonley night. eek:

drugs.

good idea

i came home today and drank a 4 shooter of bourbon, and took some nitrous, i felt fine then

it was the after effect

im gonna go smoke a blunt in 20 mins

Try Lithium.

I don't get high often...but the last 3 nights I have.

its great, isnt it

i love marijuana

and im gonna love it tonite

i havenet smoked in a relatively long time

There is a lesson in this somewhere.

Next summer get a job and dont come home for the break. Parents will drive you crazy after not having to answer to anyone for the first time.

Fuck yeah, I go crazy when I'm at home. I gave up a good job opportunity in San Diego because I have to stay and help my parents. They are old and too feeble to do anything except annoy the fuck out of me. My mom stays home and cares for my dad because hes had like 3 heart attacks, 1 stroke, and several bypass operations. My dumb brother has a kid with his gf and my folks babysit him all day long and he always gets in my room and grabs my stuff. Also, we dont have a good A/C and its around 85-90 degrees outside and we have very poor ventilation in our house. The hot air cant get out, it just floats in the house. The only escape I have is to go to my gfs house, but we both know we arent going to last much longer. Seriously, get a hobby, or work extra hours. Thats what im doing now, im working more hours so i have enough money for when my job relocates south. Sometimes i just want to grab all my shit and just leave em behind, but i cant do that. Just stay in school and keep busy, go online and play games. Or yeah, you could just kill yourself.

Don't think about it. That's your first mistake.

Do something to take your mind off of it.

Smoke some weed and do something that buzzes you out.

my gf, who lives back in pittsburgh, is in cali right now with our friend emily, she gets to chill on the beach while i get my ass kicked at work

i work at this really fancy steakhouse for little money, and today, the mexicans who cook had to open this panel in the floor and bucket shit out of this pipe into a trash can

i need to get really high

I'm on antidepressants...seriously.

HA our beaches? i take it she enjoys swimming through raw sewage and insanely cold water temperatures

*edit* holy shit. whats this emily's last name? she might be my cuz... who knows...

18, she is in santa monica now

she lives in hampton, just outside of pittsburgh


wouldnt you get more pleasure out of pumping her bro tho tgb?

rolleyes:

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HA our beaches? i take it she enjoys swimming through raw sewage and insanely cold water temperatures

Dont forget about the nice warm air we have now. ed:

*edit* holy shit. whats this emily's last name? she might be my cuz... who knows...[/quote:f0d38]

Fine don't believe me.

[quote="T.Hunter":9ac4b]*edit* holy shit. whats this emily's last name? she might be my cuz... who knows...[/quote:9ac4b]

starts with a k

I believe you. But you say it like it makes you special or something.

Like I said before I have a slight case of schizophrenia and I have bipolar depression. Woop-de-fucking-do.

do you take lithium?
i do know that it is a mysteriously effective treatment for bpd

and do you experience positive or negative schizophrenia, if positive, what is that like? im curious (psy/poss neuro major in college)

I didn't intend to make it sound special, It's not like I dance around my school shouting in relief that I'm on antidepressants..it's not like that at all.
Just thought I should picth into the coversation. Even though being depressed and being crazy are two totally different things..

No. Brand name: celexa
and the generic name is: Citalopram its a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor used to treat depression. It's also used as a sleeping pill.

ssri's, yes im familiar

you would have uniplar depression if you didnt have bpd

i was askin akuma if he took Li

yeah doctor said it was a minor dosage of it.

No I don't take Li.

I'm Not sure if I had Positive or Negative... not sure what the symtoms of each are. When I was younger I had minor psychosis(mostly hallucinations) and the doctor said I had a minor case of schizophrenia. A few years went by and I haven't had any since.

What categorization would hallucinations and extreme apathy be under?

positive symtoms are generally more severe

they include hallucinations (both visual and auditory), disorganization of thought, speech and movement, and delusions

negative symptoms are more like masked expressions or holding strange positions for long periods of tiome despite feelings of discomfort or pain

looks like you were experiencing positive symptoms, but its good that they havent ocured in a while, the chances of having schizophrenia are fairly rare, but on average, over 80% of the worlds population will at some time suffer from some type of mental disorder


im ok now, btw, but im still pissed at my situation