[SoLiDUS]

I could've had some successful relationships in the past, but shyness won the battle.

I could've made an educational effort and already be a graduate with a terrific job.

I could've done so many things differently/more efficiently... it just saddens me to imagine the possibilities so rather than get depressive about things, I'll just look forward to the future and hope that, should I recognize it, I will cease the day...