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alot of good recommendations and awesome advice. this whole thing has been going on for a couple of years now, and i'm getting sick of it. i've been trying to keep myself busy, playing alot of counterstrike source and mohaa, along with doing photoshop/photography work. i haven't been smoking pot for a long time, but i have been drinking heavily. i really want to get into excercising but i'm just too lazy. i'll just keep at things, i think it's all rooted in my problems with my exgirlfriend and what's been lost between us and in my life.

Originally Posted by Ferich

Have you tried adding humor to your unwanted thoughts? Obviously you know they're outlandish and too crazy to come true

i try, but i fail. that's the thing though, as outlandish as some of them may be it seems somewhat sensible in your head at the time.

Originally Posted by Tripper

I used to just sit and wonder which one of my friends would be most likely to sleep with my girl behind my back.

i was and still am exactly the same with my ex. it doesn't make things easier when alot of my friends do try to pick her up when they know how i feel about her; but at times i'm unsure if i'm just tricking myself into thinking they are or if infact they actually are trying. either way, i think love will always have the deepest impact on one's self, which only makes it the easiest target for this kind of behaviour.

Originally Posted by Arkan

Perhaps you need to alter your lifestyle slightly. Sometimes doing something new alltogether is all you need to change the way you think.

i've been thinking about that. i've been wanting to set alot of routines for myself and do alot more for me rather than just being lazy. i want to get into reading, working out, talking more with friends and family, just being better to myself in general. i just turned 20 so i think it's about fucking time i get on track and stop jacking off to porn all day. a trip would also be nice, tokyo mmm... happy:


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