[Tripper]

I know exactly how you're feeling, Kyle....When I started going out with my girlfriend I used to just sit and wonder which one of my friends would be most likely to sleep with my girl behind my back. I felt real bad about it...I even used to get angry at one of my mates who dated her for like a week 3 years before I did...Just stupid thoughts like that.

I chalked it down to being a combination of a) being in a new situation with someone I care deeply about, b) random stress c) really liking the girl and not wanting to get hurt... and also just being that age when you grow into another level of social awareness and identity and trying to figure alot of stuff about yourself out.
Too much free time was also a factor. If you're doing nothing for too long, you start thinking to much, and the train of thought can sometimes take you to weird and nasty destinations. I reckon' the trick is to be the mutha fukin conductor and take that train to more positive and creative places. Keep yourself occupied etc. It can be hard as fuck to stop thinking shit like that, so yeah...Might take some time to figure it all out. I wouldnt fret about it though, that could make it worse.

Every now and then I still sometimes feel like I'm being quite negative about some stuff...but its not as common as it was about a year ago, and I believe its at least partly because I've figured out ways to avoid overthinking things.