[Wilko]

I'm very sorry to hear that, though you're not alone, all of us have been through it at some point. This isn't to detract from what you must be feeling right now, it's just to put into perspective that other people have been there and gotten through it. Ask around, you never know your luck, you may find her again. If not, the best you can do is chalk it up to experience, "Ships that pass in the night" and all that, and move on. This is capable of totally consuming you, but only if you let it.