[r3mix]

you gotta understand drugs are escapism.

i knew a kid a long time ago. got the shit belted out of him for about a decade. bad and regular. grew up under a parent thought it was normal to drag a scrawny little epileptic boy outta his bed half asleep and beat him unconscious a few times a week for something he has said or done weeks earlier.

he was scared so shitless he wouldnt talk to anyone about it... told everyone from counsellors to cops lies or just to fuck off. so it just went on until he copped a beating with an axe handle. left half dead on the floor of his garage at 16.... rib through his lung and blood wall to wall. apparently his unlicenced brother found him and he ended up driving him to hospital.

friend of his copping pretty much the same ended up putting a .22 in his mouth a few months later. not a very powerful gun the .22 and took him all night to die. i knew this kid and it was a lot less painfull than hanging about i can assure you.

so yeah theres kids who just use drugs for fun and recreation and take it too far and probably do bring it on themselves.

theres others that get taught real early how little value their life has. whatever scale thats on... from experiencing real hate to people not caring if you are without clothes or shelter. you spend an entire winter sleeping on concrete you might understand actually where that rates. if that gets put in ya head for too long theres not much concern for anything more than removing as much pain as you can or putting something in your head other than nightmares.

and we are the only species that displays this evil. remember that.
and sleep tight.